This post had been sitting on my drafts since Feb. 14, 2013.
The night before Vday, Liam had act up that created an argument between me and Dino. That night, all my insecurities about being a good mom and all the guilt came out. I really can’t sleep with all those bad thoughts, so after a few toss and turns, I went out of the room so I can clear my head.
Before I move on to that night’s story, let me share with you another concern we are handling. Liam has a problem about waking up alone. You see, ever since he was born, I was so praning that even if he’s asleep, I really don’t want him left alone. So maybe, that’s also the reason why he’s not use to it. Earlier this year, they had an incident where Donna left him for a while to pee (during his nap). He woke up and cried so bad that he had been restless in bed since then. He would always make sure that somebody is on his side by hugging or touching any part of his body to the one beside him. I talked to him every night after that. Told him that he doesn’t have to cry and be afraid should he wake up alone, that I will only be outside should he wake up and not find me. (same goes when he takes his afternoon naps with Donna). Every night for a week I did that. Slowly, he was able to sleep better.
Back to my restless night, while
unnecessarily feeling sorry for myself, I suddenly heard someone opening the door from our room. I thought it was just Dino checking on me, then I realized that it was Liam all doze-y and with eyes squinting at the light, no crying, just looking for me outside as I told him. I quickly carried him (before he fell down on our steps) and he simply asked: “what are you doing?”
With that simple gesture, I realized that am doing something right after all.